Rememberance and the gift of judgement

Remembering the Goddess within has a down side, you have to get honest-real honest.  So I have decided to document my progress here.  If life is what you make it, if indeed I am the co-creator of my life, then I am determining to write about everything that I witness as I become more conscious.  Tonight I had a very big insight- everything that I judge is what I am being- and as I was cleaning up the chocolate that I dropped in my bed that got smeared on my sheets and my pants as I sat on said chocolate while I watched TV, I was replaying a earlier conversation that I had had today, judging my husband for not taking better care of himself with food.  It hit me in the face, here I am eating massive amounts of sugar- for the incredible way it soothes me all the while feeling guilty that I cannot stop my addiction… what a hypocrite.  And it hit me…I am going to write about this journey of self discovery because I am seeing it.  It is so big and so simple and yet so complicated until we are ready to accept the TRUTH that each and everyone of us is running the show!!!!  How freeing is that?  How incredibly, outrageously freeing, because that means that we get to play anyway we want and nothing matters because you and I, we are infinite beings, and if you ever had a deep desire to be in the movies, well my friend you are an award winning actor,director, set, lighting, costume, make-up, FX designer as well as the producer and executive producer…How does it get any better then that?????

Recently I have been listening to two different facilitators of Access Consciousness, an interesting and very revealing set of useful tools designed to wake individuals up to the fact that they are part of the whole- ONE as it where, The ONE, ALL THAT IS.  This has been pivotal in all the learning that I have done through out my life, this time through, somehow this approach really speaks to me- but I will speak on that more later.  For now suffice it to say that although my consciousness has been raising significantly swifter in the past few years, (I think everyone has, even those in denial), the light of it all is becoming clearer.  I am remembering.  I do fluctuate at times, back down into the depths of my merky, unclear mind, but tonight I see it- I see what I need to do and I am grateful for the judgements as they will help to show the way.

So now I send out blessings of love and peace to all the world, I see love flowing everywhere, I hold all of the world leaders in light and love that they may be able to navigate and lead from a place of love rather than ego and power.  I see the beauty of a world of all realizing the oneness of it all- the utter folly of thinking that there is separation.  Is it not beautiful?